Wolves

 


Era: pre-LotN

Look, it's not the pain
that keeps on drawing me away from what I love.
There's things haunting all of us
Whether from below or from above.

I recorded those lines late one night, weeks before I ever thought of LotN as a possibility.  Shortly (very shortly) after he and I started talking, I sat down one day and turned it into what you hear up there.  Wolves is the only song I'm posting tonight that isn't strictly auto-biographical.  While some of the lines certainly describe how I've felt from time to time, the whole song describes someone much less inclined to settle down than I am.

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